Flowers.

Well done!
How many flowers have I killed everyday?
Now I feel like a destroyer.
Killing all the growing flowers.
Once, someone says that
"Friendship and trust are like flowers"
I have two choices: water or burn them.

My childhood has gone
18 now- age of maturity?

Why can't I get my old life?
Why can't I have normal friends?
Or am I the one who is abnormal?
Now I don't even know how to go through my own life.
What's the point of giving people advice while I can't survive my own?

Now I am walking down the road.
Crowded but I am empty.
It is going to rain.
My eyes too.

People come to this world with nothing.
And they leave things behind when they leave.

Good. Now I am really clueless.

Envy is the word.
To many people out there who can hang out with their friends, play sports, visit each other house, talk crap, karaoke, etc.
Pity me.
This is the wrong circle that I have taken.
Time to erase- everyone from that circle.
And I will say good bye.

I hope the next day is going to be easy.
Making friend is just like saying "what's your name"
Making good friend is just like saying "do you want to go out with me"
And making best friend is just like saying "Can I talk to you?" when there is noone to turn to.

The cup is always empty.
Waiting someone to pour in.

I have no idea who is close and far.
I have no idea who hates or likes me.
I have no idea who i am.

Pretend to be good.
I am an asshole.
Pretend to be hardworking.
I am a crap.
Pretend to be smart.
I am stupid.

Everyday I woke up.
I have no idea what is ahead of me.
I am sure that everyone too.
I have nothing to hold one.
I am sure that not everyone likes me.

Everytime I look back.
I am sad.
Am I proud?
Am I worth to live?
I am done with all of these.

You can say as many times as you want,
"You can change! You have to be sure!"
Shut up! Don't just say! Tell me how!

Looking at the new generations.
They are very talented.
Much better than me, of course.
I am nothing.
I just want to live my life.
Remove me from your list of life.

20 Dec

Woke up
Play LAN
Dinner
Went home.

Bought an album to keep all my movie tickets.
I think I should give up on buying a bag-
use my old kipling bag.

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Next things to get:
- earphone
- usb port extension

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I am going to move to my new room soon~
Make it a neat and condusive one- and lasts for a year.

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My brain is so messy right now ): argh!

Happy Birthday LVA !!

I was supposed to meet LVA at 9am then I overslept by 10minutes.
Lucky I saw his sms. I rushed into the toilet and washed my face.
Grabbed the gift that I have prepared and met him!
Good that he likes the gift that I gave him. :D
Happy birthday LVA!!~
I was talking quite a lot of things with him!

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Then I went to Orchard for lunch buffet with my workmates.
Having a good time at Seoul Garden Taka there :D
We were eating for more than 3 hours. hehs.

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After that, the madness starts!
With yuyue as a photographer and the rest as the models.
We take a lot lottsss of pictures.
CRAZY pictures. SHAMELESS.
Haha. I dont have the picture now ):
He is going to upload the pictures!! HAHA.
ROCKS!~ damn happy.

We took picture with Heinenken beer stall, Deers along orchard road, telephone box, Ferrero Rocher christmas tree, Taka christmas tree, Seoul Garden, 313 Somerset Rooftop, ZARA.

OMG. People are looking at us! We are shameless~ thick skin!
So proud :D

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After that, we went shopping but I didnt get anything.
I want to get a new bag actually but it didnt happen.

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Very tired. Now need to finish the list of logistics then can sleep~
I think tomorrow I am going to LAN and have dinner outside with my friend at Bugis.

Amazing Race Pit Stop in Singapore?

Today planned to go to work late :D
Woke up at 9am.
Did some orientation proposal work (almost finish! yes!) - need to do logistics after that.
Went to KFC for brunch. Having my own sweet time there.
Then took bus to my workplace.
Nah~ When I sat down, there was this guy reading The New Paper.
I was reading too :D
What shocking me is that Amazing Race is coming to Singapore for a pit stop.
I am bloody excited o_O
I hope I can join Amazing Race next time. ARGH!

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Yesterday I was watching Avatar3D with my workmates.
The movie is relatively long for a 3D movie.
But it is great~ worth-watching.
Eventhough I disagree with my friend that he said I should watch it 10x. haha.
Sorry LVA. :D
He is so obsessed with it.
But I wont disagree that the 3D effect is cool.

After movie, we went to hunt some food.
Plaza Sing is fully crowded.
Ran to Fish and co. ~ no seats for ten.
We went into Park Mall, hoping to see some glimmers of hope there.
We decided to go to Han's ~ not fabulous but ok to fill my empty tummy.

And we took pictures there.
Sad that ms.F was having a date~ HAHA!
and her movie-spoiler movement has failed to ten of us! RAWR.

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Two days ago I was watching a movie that I missed out last time.
"The Proposal"


It is supposed to be a comedy movie but I cried on a particular section.
Phew~ a 4/5 for that movie :D

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Now, back to work- proposal.

STRESSED

I am STRESSED! Work Work Work Work Work. Bah!

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Have a great new chapter of life, Justin Foo! All the best!

Advance Farewell to Justin Foo

Justin:

Thanks for the great times of knowing you this long!
Just want to wish you all the best for the new chapter of your life tomorrow.
Be a great chef and dont forget me~
I'll miss ya! Keep in contact~

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Morning - as usual.
Today was busy doing poster, need to submit it tomorrow to my supervisor.
Tonight I must plot the graphs and include them in the poster.
I am sure that I dont want to be a researcher in the future. Blerrrkk.

Afternoon - as usual.

Evening - KFC for dinner and went home.

oh ya~ today mr Yapyap bought new iphone and a bag~ :D nice one~
I feel like getting new bag but up to now, I still dont know where to get~ uhh.
Nvm, I still have Christmas shopping spree day~

This Thursday I am planning to make my debit card :D yey!
Then a*star group is going to watch AVATAR 3D! Hope it is going to be really good.

This Saturday is Seoul Garden lunch buffet with A*Star group again :D yey~

I am thinking of getting E!Pass for Cathay (thinking of going for movies spree after attachment is over) HEHE! But I dont know how to get one ):
Recently, I applied for so many cards. Last week was applying for Pastamania membership.
Woopz~ I think I should get bigger wallet HAHA. :3

Nah, I was chatting with Siyuan in QQ and he showed me his picture in Beijing with his girlfriend. Glad that he had a great vacation there :D I am here- working attachment )):

This Wednesday I am going to stay over at my friend's house and he's getting me something from Australia :D YEY!

This weekend I suppose to have a dinner with my friend, AY. But he never confirms it.. Perhaps I should post the thing that I want to pass to him. As usual, he seldom replies my message- or very slow.

Now I should do my poster work. RAWR!

The Princess and Frog

As usual, I woke up at 9am this morning.
I think I was doing some nonsense until 12pm.
Then I went to Orchard with Yujin to watch this movie
I will rate it 4/5. Apparently, it is great~ hilarious and the message is great too! musical, romance, sad, and humorous. a real twist of Disney piece of art!

Then we went to eat Pastamania~
I applied for membership card. hehs. :D
I bought books that my sister wants and helped yujin to get his hairdrier.

This afternoon was a sunny rainy day~
We went home around 5pm. Slept in the bus.

Reached home and uploaded pictures in facebook. Quite a number of them :D hehs~
go check it out.
Then went to Broadway to eat charsiew rice as usual.

Back to boarding school, go to dining hall- doing my chinese homework.
It is really tough~ HELP!
Thanks to Yujin who always help me~ haha.

Nah, now I need to work on my JCRC, Interact, and a*star..
Need to get things done!

Starting Chinese ab Homework

Today I woke up at 9am.

Then I had a sudden feeling of going to LAN shop to play.

HAHA. I was playing L4D2 for around one hour and another two hours playing AuditionSEA. Hehs. I leveled up liao~

After that I had my lunch Tokyo Shin.

I think I ate jap food at wrong timing, was not enjoying it that much.

In the afternoon, I was playing tennis with Yujin and Siyan.

Yujin can play well and Siyan was just started playing tennis.

However, he was quite good for a new player :D

I never play tennis for quite a long time and I used wrong hand-style for forehand and backhand. Hehs. No wonder my hits were very weird.

We were having fun :D

Siyan's first time :D

Pro Yujin~

Then Yujin and I went to Queensway. He bought tennis balls and wristband~

and eventually, we ate McDonald's :D Seaweed fries~~ hehs.

Back to boarding school~ He was teaching me Chinese for my homework

Lots and lots of new words~ brrrr.

I think I should start practicing my Chinese now~ or else I wont be able to do my IB exam.

Tomorrow I am going to Orchard with him to watch movie, lunch, get a hairdrier for him and book for my sister.

End of the day~ I am going to take shower and watch youtube later.

Eyyyyyyy!

Go check this link.

CUTE MADNESS!!!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ErMWX--UJZ4&feature=topvideos

See ya.

Another Weekend

I was thinking to write blog yesterday but was too tired~
So will write about it now.

Yesterday I went to work in the morning
and I received a SMS from my groupmate that she could not come.
Perfect~ was slacking the whole day. Literally the whole day.
Poster is on due~ hehs.

I went home early to meet my new friend.
It was an absolute mistake.
Stupid.

Then, I decided to have my dinner in boarding school with my juniors
and happen to see some people from my batch there (:
The food was horrible though )):

Then staying under the sky for a chat for a while
after that we went to MPH to play badminton.
Quite nice game :D
I was playing with Siyan, Yujin, Nguyen, and Viet Anh.

As I reached my room, I was doing all random stuff and took shower.
Watching THE APPRENTICE UK Season 3 Episode 6. Then go to sleep.

Nah, my plan today is to play tennis with Yujin, accompany him to go to Queensway, and have dinner there.

Ah~ now have the sudden feeling to go to LAN shop and play AUDITION and L4D2. Hehs.
I shall take shower now, have my bite there and play for 3 hours. ~~

"Last" Meeting -

This morning went to work, as usual.
TGIF tomorrow.

Slacking day but need to finish a poster by next wednesday.
Try to finish it with my partner tomorrow.
Then can slack again.

Lately so many things are stuck in my mind,
and Im just hanging in there.

I just back from a farewell dinner with Justin.
It was better that what I expected~
sharing some life story and etc.
It has been great to know him,
and it is sad to know that he is leaving.
Anw, all the best for him and good to know that he didnt regret to know me as his friend. Hope he likes the stuff the I get for him and all the best for his study and future career.

I want my holiday

Half of my holiday has gone.
gone.
Everyday has to go to work.
so busy.
Poster.
Proposal.
Logistics.
Etc.
Unending.
I need my pure holiday. )):

Having a bad cough too now.
Argh..

Working has been a daily routine for me. Nothing much to say.
Cracking new jokes everyday.

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Reformat

Heeee~ today woke up at 8. Instantly remembered that I need to meet TX at CCK. He helped me to reformat my laptop (the whole thing) and now my laptop is back to normal ;D YEY! Can use my friend's broadband already and now I am downloading AuditionSEA. ROFL. No need to go to LAN to play liao~ HAHA.

Thanks a lot TX! ;D

Then after that I went with my chinese junior -Kiddy- to Bugis. He is supposed to collect his free laptop bag but apparently the shop asked him to go to Funnan Center. ~diao** And he went to Funan last week, asked him to go to Simlim square. Aiyah~
Maybe if i have time next weekend will help him to go to Orchard and Funan. Hmm.

Nah, yesterday I went to Orchard with 6 of Chinese juniors. Show them around and wanted to watch N16 movies but the ticket seller was asking for their ICs. They dont have it with them. So, ended up watching me shopping gifts for my friend.

Sneak preview: Next thursday I am going to have dinner with my friends ;D

Uhm, starting tomorrow I think I will do sport and try to shape my body. Hehs.

Tomorrow work again~ uhHhh. But it is good too, meet friends again. Hehe.

Today must finish the proposal to submit to my boss. I will not sleep before I finish it. RAWR.

Reformat

Heeee~ today woke up at 8. Instantly remembered that I need to meet TX at CCK. He helped me to reformat my laptop (the whole thing) and now my laptop is back to normal ;D YEY! Can use my friend's broadband already and now I am downloading AuditionSEA. ROFL. No need to go to LAN to play liao~ HAHA.

Thanks a lot TX! ;D

Then after that I went with my chinese junior -Kiddy- to Bugis. He is supposed to collect his free laptop bag but apparently the shop asked him to go to Funnan Center. ~diao** And he went to Funan last week, asked him to go to Simlim square. Aiyah~
Maybe if i have time next weekend will help him to go to Orchard and Funan. Hmm.

Nah, yesterday I went to Orchard with 6 of Chinese juniors. Show them around and wanted to watch N16 movies but the ticket seller was asking for their ICs. They dont have it with them. So, ended up watching me shopping gifts for my friend.

Sneak preview: Next thursday I am going to have dinner with my friends ;D

Uhm, starting tomorrow I think I will do sport and try to shape my body. Hehs.

Tomorrow work again~ uhHhh. But it is good too, meet friends again. Hehe.

Today must finish the proposal to submit to my boss. I will not sleep before I finish it. RAWR.

Another EE DAY

I am busy with my EE the whole day and up to now, I havent done my EE. ARGH!

I was doing my EE at my workplace.
Now I am eating.
Later going to finish my EE.
Tomorrow I am going to submit my EE.

AW!

Today I didnt do anything about the project in my workplace. Huff!
Tomorrow there will be MOE interview as well as lecture for me and my partner.

Ciao~ eat my packed dinner and go do my EE.
Sorry cant online on QQ. (busy)

Two days more to EE submission

Just back from work.
Today woke up late at 8:20am and still can reach work at 09:00am. Tomorrow should wake up later. Haha. Tomorrow morning will be doing my EE at my 'office' because my partner is not going to be around in the morning. She will come late at 2pm perhaps. 2-4pm will be doing some modeling work in the lab then try to go home early to finish up my EE. My EE must be done by tomorrow, no matter what..

Today was having lunch at Capricorn Cafe which is quite expensive compared to the other places that we went for lunch. It was because of the rain. Duhh~ Anyway, it was another good day today at workplace.

I was having dinner at Clementi with my roommate. We were eating japanese food and then decided to play LAN at Clementi there. Two of our schoolmates saw us there (which I dont really know who but apparently both of them know me) so we ended up playing L4D for a while. It was quite fun but it is always difficult to be the survivors. I prefer to be the infected. Haha. I want to play more!! MY HOLIDAY! RAWR!

Suddenly remember that i have 8 past year papers Chinese homework. ARRGH!

Nah, I am going to continue with my EE now.

First day of Decembe12

This morning wanted to reach work late but ended up early because the bus arrived just when I needed them.

Today my groupmate didnt come in the morning because she was excused. Good thing, I could translate my EE interview and include them into my appendix. My EE draft due this friday, 4th december! )): HELP. Need to rush everything then i will go for LAN spree! RAWR.

Uhm. Having a great time knowing all my friends in the institution that I worked in. Having our picnic, main office, and LAME JOKES. Love to hear their laughters and their facial expressions.

My groupmate and I were thinking about penguins for our penguins-alike supervisor and his friend. Then SUDDENLY his friend said that today is our supervisor's birthday! ~diao~ then my groupmate and I are thinking to get him something penguin-ish. Perhaps we are going to give him on Wednesday. LOLS. Interesting~

This weekend I am planning to go watch movie with my juniors- i believe most of them are PRCs. It is great to know all of them! :D I think it will be something like bringing a lot of children to the town! Hehs.

Next weekend need to meet my friend who is leaving Singapore to become a chef. I got him some things already though. I am not sure how is the atmosphere going to be when I met him. It has been quite some time for us to talk and meet.

Oh ya, the lunch today was great! :D hoping to go there again for lunch with my workmates. Then we were thinking to have a Seoul Garden party one of the weekends :D YEY! SOUNDS GREAT~ looking forward to it. Then my blackberry was turned to STRAWberry in the bus on my way back home because I could not find how much is the student price for buffet in Seoul Garden. RAWR.

Now I am going to take shower and continue my last portion of interview translation and move on to complete my Extended Essay!