Language Art P1 and IHS blekkkz :X

Bleerrkkzz.

Whatever--

Ageliatiarism buehhh.

I dont even know how to spell it-

and it is not even in the file-

omg omg. just hope not to fail.

I just chunk everything inside-

only 5citations, ya- hoping to pass.

my worse handwritting from the mid of the paper but still legible X:

DBQ seems ok for me but HBQ is horrible terrible bubble bubble-

bahhhs.

please dont fail me- pheww.

Language Art-

haiz doctor

distinction-

what is the story about woorrr..?

But at least i did what I can-

tomorrow paper 2 for lang art.

all the best for you all and me also.

heehhhhhs.

dont fail me pls- behhh.

Alzheimer

Looking at newspaper-

planning to widen my fact for exam tomorrow

but addicted to finish the story on

Alzheimer,

reminds me at my age-

yah. so old liao

I want to help the caregiver

emotional support.

Yah- soon.

Tomorrow exams start.

Good luck everybody.

Preparing My Bullets

Yes- Last day of school.
All went well at this moment-
the atmosphere of tension papers have started by the Juniors and Seniors
and soon- I will join them-
Hoping all the best for my preparation of bullets-
So, when I bang bang bang to the paper-
yea- the outcome shdnt be that bad-

for those who have just received your trial shooting results-
from there you know which rank you stand,
and how many more bullets you need to prepare to beat the papers.
It is nt the competitors are the opponent,
but the papers are.

I am going to release myself to the outlife there today-
and start to create my bullets by then..

Kohar.

Live Well

I think I live well today-
did all the best I could for today-

to my friend who almost fall into a fight,
just do not dwell into it so much-
'marks are not everything'.
that is what I really learnt today-

Have a nice day.

Most Sweet to Most Bitter

I have tasted-

taste of this life-

taste of this world-

sweet and bitter-

sour and plain-

Now I might think that I know much

that I know a lot

that I know most of things in this world.

But, as I feel that I know more-

as I know more and more-

I feel that I still do not know many things out there-

this intensity of sweetness and bitterness

still can increase exponentially by time.

I know how loneliness feels

I know how alone feels

I know how lost feels

I have tasted how love tastes

I have tested how smiling tastes-

there are too much things to list,

I have seen the dark side of this world-

the betrayal-

the backstabbing-

I have seen the lights of this world-

care-

and love.

Mature-

boon or bane?

Childish-

boon or bane?

I just really dont know.

My age has reached 17-

soon or later, without knowing-

20 is approaching.

I only can envy at people-

looking at how good they are-

and just simply think that they are my role model-

even though just a stranger-

ya.. that's my life-

I do not know why I write blog twice today-

I just realli feel to write this thought down-

I realli wann to have a hi-tech camera (:

I just feel older and older-

with my childish soul and matured thought at the same time?

time has gone very fast-

like wind in the dessert, blows all the sands.

Honour's Day

First of all,

thank you for teachers

who gave me these various awards.

Eventhough it sounds like a sardine

in a package of 1000 sardines,

I really appreciate it.

Thank you-

for the 3x5secs on the stage-

it is something to me-

not about the papers-

not about the name-

but it's about the trust you have put on me.

I realised something when I was on the stage-

and I learnt something in each 5secs on there.

Thank you for those who clap for me-

I was not searching for popularity-

but I realli appreciate your claps,

that show that I am a part of each of your life-

classmate - everybody, thank you

Each 5seconds do not mean much too me-

it is not the prove of your trust.

Your trust is proven by your action and words.

Each 5 seconds make me understand something

that it was for them-

ya, i am sure-

for our parents and relatives present there.

It's to give them the pride that

they are our parents.

The photos you have taken by

dragging your feet specially to the front of the stage,

shows that you proud of your son or daughter.

And I definitely and very sure that your son is also very happy for your presence.

I am just so happy-

in this busy type of life everybody have,

chased by time,

there are still parents willing to wait their son's turn to be 'honoured' on the stage.

Even it is not me,

ya- I am still happy for them.

Also congrats for you all- for your various achievement.

Last three were very amazing-

national,

international

standard-

sports.

Ya, just wondering when I will be able to become like them-

have something to be really proud of-

not just simply for recognition-

I will be one day..

_____________________________________

I want to write a letter to my mom:

Dear Mom,

I hope this letter arrived to your place, somewhere..

I know it is kinda too late to make you proud of me-

but I just wann to tell you that I love you,

I remember that I only said that three-words once to you during your lifetime.

you are amazing for me and of course for your other sons and daughter.

I was wondering if you were there when I was on the stage-

receiving the honor.

I regret that I never bring you around this new school.

Now everything is just too late

but I will not forget you, always.

Ya- I hope that you are proud of me-

and I hope you are happy, anywhere you are right now, up there.

Love,

your son.

__________________________________

For all of you who are talented, and etc.

Use that to make your parents proud of you-

...

__________________________________

To: all parents out there

I hope that all of you are proud having your sons or daughters.

I hope that all of you willing to spend your little time to your son's precious moment at school.

It will not come twice or three times.

It will just happen once- and that's it.

I am sure your presence will be greatly appreciated by your son.

because all of those are not about the awards,

not about the certs-

it is about your presence.

Your sons do not want acknowledgement from their whole school or peers

just because an award- they can just simply their friends about it.

But they want to prove to you all that they want to make you proud of them.

Regards,

Kohar

6 More Days

Yah-
recently was so happy looking at surroundings, environment, sky, people-
yeah- just kinda give a sense of happiness somehoww-
simplicity?

Exams are coming soon and now Im revising my Physics.

Yeah-
feel like buying new phone liaoo (after exam must must buy liao~ haha!)
my phone camera spoil liao- hais.

after sch was at library-
gt ex-sch teacher came- lame. bahh.

then, this morning was getting half cohort scolding-

demerit points for swimming for some people? hais..
hope not la- or else that will be vy lame-

thats it for today-
6 more days to start the battle field.

7 Days Left

Boooooo~~!!
Seven days left worr.
Exams are coming. lols.
Lucky got Hari Raya Puasa in the midst of the exam, so can prepare better for the next papers. Pheww--

Exactly one week of 'stress' then shopping time wor. hahas.

Today was revising my physics. lolls.
and it was a slacking school day~ lolls.
Got phototaking-
then extra recess. blahblahblah.
exam briefing (boring~) hahas.

and dinner today starts at 7pm. sobb.
hungry- feed me feed me- pheww.

This week will boost my physics skill- hehes.

and also need to submit my essay by this week- try to finish the final one by tonight worr.

kOhar

Thanks

If you think you are handsome,
say thanks to those who you think are less handsome,
because of them you are handsome.

If you think you are smart,
say thanks to those who you think are less smart,
because of them you are smart.

If you think you are tall,
say thanks to those who you think are less tall,
because of them you are tall.

If you ask me,
then those who are least handsome, least smart, and least tall should thanks to who?
They should thanks back to the others,
because they have other things that other people are not so good at (:

I wann to thanks to mirror
who never lies to me-
show me when im ugly
show me when im handsome
show everything about me-
good and bad.

I think its really the time to be a good boy (:

thank you for those out there who spent time wif me-
thank you for those who have been there for me.

I feel that there is something missing in my life-
looking at other people's life.
simplistic what i missed?
or.. harmonies?
there is something gone- from my life.. innocence?
try to fight back for it (:

Humm- yar-
exams are so near right now-
hope all my study planning is going to work :X
just wann all the best for my result-
not so concern about it- i'll just do what i can do.
then after my exams go shopping!!
lollsss.

Lists: (tentatively)
- shoes
- slippers
- handphone
- (bag)?
- necklace
- presents
- many thingss woorrrr..

LolllS.
Thanks :3

The Meaning of Life

"The Meaning of Life"
It is my term 4 assessment.
Sounds so easy but yet so difficult,
sounds so difficult but yet so easy.

Everybody have their own ideas on their own meaning of life.
Each individual has different purpose and meaning.
Yes- you think that it is easy to describe your own meaning of life.
It can be purely from religion,
purely from family,
or other sources.
It also can be from combination of all factors.
It also can be purely from your own heart, feelings, brain, knowledge, or whatever it is. It also can be combined though-

I was sitting down in the library just now- for an hour,
explaining my own meaning of life.
sounds so chim to my teacher who reviewed my papers-
it is so unique or if you wann call it unusual.
I believe most of this concept of my own meaning of life comes from combination of my family, past experience, religion, my beliefs, and some others factors.

But I have -so called- 'conclude that all of these are just believe.
Believing something that you cannot see,
something that you believe to be true,
but the fact- yet- you never know, you really never know whether it is occuring or not.

Ya- now what I need to do is to ammend some part of my essay.
eventhough some people think it is so chim but interesting.
Ya- but really, it is my stand, my own stand.
I do not know whether it will change as time flies-
but I believe in it as per now.

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Hehs. I so long never blog liao-
My exams are coming soon! lolls. was 'mugging' but not that enthu..
I just called it hardworking- lolls. doing what I can.

Many things were going on these few days:

I was having conflict with my outside friend,
it was my fault, and i just wann to apologise.
sorry, once more time.
hope u forgive me and we cann still be good friends.

I so long never watch movie liaoo-
was studying. sob. this sunday going to watch-
last movie before my exam start- maybe "Disaster Movie"

oh ya- Famous JJBC hahas.
"Apa sihh, Bill?" keep it up worr.
im really enjoying your jokes- dry one please.
it becomes trend now- lolls.

Umm. was kinda playing facebook also- hahas.
"Elven blood" for fun.

Maths are getting harder and harder!
Need to revise and practice.

I was kinda having some on9 friends currently,
but not sure who can be my gd friends.

I think that's all.
Just try to appreciate my life-
I am not that bad overall.
Thanks to everybody,
sun, stars, and moon who take care of me,
strangers around me who make the atmosphere of life,
and also imaginary friend who always accompany me- whenever i feel lonely.

Successful and Significant

I just back from my boarding school Koinonia-
today's Koinonia is kinda special-
started with 'Stranded' quiz- my hallmate won.
then- continue with some worships- (nice songs!)
eventhough I am not devout
and the 'band' is very nice- ((:
then there was this one old boy from my school
who gave a sharing and sang a song-
what he said is true- it is just like what I am thinking for some times
that we will not want to end our success.
Once we want to have thing, called it A.
after we achieved "A" then we want to obtain "B", and so on.
It will just not meet an end point anywhere.

Being a successful person is very good-
but being a significant person in a good way is much better (:
I was thinking in class- looking at the absentees boards-
two names were absent today, and one for yesterday.
If you wann to know how significant you are in your class,
it is not by asking people or whatever it is.
It is just to be absent in a class, and if you feel something is incomplete in the class atmospehere,
then that person is significant as it has impact on the class.
It is just one example that I thought for these few days.
However, thinking further, I am kinda worry over myself too.
Will people remember me when I die?(Not to be vain but just wann to have my life to be significant in this life)
Like my mom,
I am quite sure that many people will remember her, not only just the whole big family from top to below- but also her friends- good friends or even not the so close one.
Sometimes I think- what happen after we die?
Not being afraid of die, but just curious what will happen.

Sometimes I think what my friend says is right,
"Silence is golden"
Keep my mouth shuts will help me not to talk bad about other people, i guess.
I just wann to be good. that's all.
I dont know why I cannot believe in something superstitious.
What I believe is, if i live and do good to others, it is as good as having a superstitious 'guidelines'.

Things to do:- Revise, revise, and revise chemm bioo phyys
(omg my physics is horriblee!!)
- be nice to my friends.
btw sorry to my friends if I did anything vy bad to you all ):

- Kohar Loves to Eat -

- Super Supper after Special Koinonia!! -

Bad Mood

Yesterday--

There was an aircon plus fan 'incident'

I am not the one who wann both of them to be turned on-

I am fine if only either one is on.

But ya- why the blames must be on me-

I just need to wait patiently until this year end-

and live a happy life, i hope.

Final exams are coming,

means year is going to come to an end soon- yeah.

I wonder who is my roommate next year.

Im kinda stressed with these people surroundings me-

Yesterday morning was a big downfall mood to me,

after that it follows to my classmate-

and now he wants to borrow my notes- last year notes-

It is not I do not wann to lend him but

days after days, i just feel him more annoying-

or.. annoying is not the word.. I dont know how to describe it..

Haiz. or it is because we are not so close anymore.

I dont know why i keep hating people.

I still prefer my outside school friends, or maybe Singaporeans.

I dont know why- I just feel better to get along wif them.

I wish.. if I have a different past- but nothing now can be changed.

-I got chocolate just now, during Chem tutorial-

-My sch library, second time studying there until closing time-

Cute or Cool

Another day I see the moon rises up in the dark sky.

6, I do not know what is cool.

13, do I look cute?-

15, I move to this wonderful country

17, now I am in this dilemma.

People think I look very childish?--

I look very cute-?

very- ugly?

or whatever.

Looking on a poster,
movie trailer,

CD cover,

anywhere-

there are always idol that I wanna be-

I know it's impossible.

I know that we should be ourselves.

Hair to toe to be followed-?

I know-

yesterday will not come twice.

and today- even this second- will not return again.

I will miss every single day that I have acrossed- happy and sad ones.

also the stressed of studying for my end of the year exams. >.<

Maybe-

and perhaps.

I think I am happy of what I am.

What I have.

and What I am doing.

No matter what bad things they say about me,

but I am not doing anything wrong,

not anything bad,

not anything harmful to them-

ya- I am just being myself.

-My Dinner-

-He Draws Ultraman Vy Cute One!!-

-Finally My A.Maths Homework Done; 7pages- :3

Midline Does Not Exist

Life is not as simple as choosing a,b,c,d of a multiple choice question,
which there is no half a-half b or quarter-a,b,c,d

It is just fixed, yes or no, right or wrong.

People say that i wann to be neutral
or whatever it is.

But the sad thing is that, that neutral line does not exist.

For example, the 2boxes below, point the middle line.

Now I want to ask you, do you still point the gray or the black one?

Midline does not exist in this life.

How objective you wann to be, how neutral you wann to be,

you are still on one side which you prefer.

Its called emotion-

These few days-
I was going to the library- kinda wholeday- noon till library closes at 9pm.
My new friend accompanied me ((:
He is vy good,
and motivates me to study.
At least I finished some of my Bio topics (30 chapters in total!)
and.. did some homeworks.
Haha..
These days are very fruitful to me!
He is just simply.. amazing, i guess.

And.. ya- he is super good and bought egg tart for me ((:
**Sorry I never eat in front of you--
but I really eat them all!
(Even I take picture of it)

It is very nice
* I thought you shd eat 2!!

Haha. Sad thing cant see you until we finish our exam! hahas.
Study hard for your first day maths and all the subjs. ((:
I am going to study for my EOY also
Thanks for the companion.

Oh ya, I think I am going to purchase a phone plan ((:
I am going to buy the nice nice phone that I like, flip one! hahas.
My sister said cann liaoo- hohos.

I think now I should be relaxing a while (last check point to relax)
School starts tomorrow!
It must be a good day! hahas.
Now must prepare to go meet my friend.
We go watch movie- last refreshment of this holiday.

When you see someone who
motivates you,
cares you,
and helps you.

When I feel very stupid,
lame,
and admire that person-
ya-- is very good person.

Nice to meet uu-
Enjoyed my prata yday! hahas.
banana's one.

Hope vve can be good friends ((:

*Mugging today*
**Exams are coming**

kOhar :3

Can I?

Can I have my innocent life back?
I am dwelling too much in this evil life-
bring me no good
bring me no happiness.

I hope this world is not that bad
that they suck everybody to doom.