Most Sweet to Most Bitter

I have tasted-

taste of this life-

taste of this world-

sweet and bitter-

sour and plain-

Now I might think that I know much

that I know a lot

that I know most of things in this world.

But, as I feel that I know more-

as I know more and more-

I feel that I still do not know many things out there-

this intensity of sweetness and bitterness

still can increase exponentially by time.

I know how loneliness feels

I know how alone feels

I know how lost feels

I have tasted how love tastes

I have tested how smiling tastes-

there are too much things to list,

I have seen the dark side of this world-

the betrayal-

the backstabbing-

I have seen the lights of this world-

care-

and love.

Mature-

boon or bane?

Childish-

boon or bane?

I just really dont know.

My age has reached 17-

soon or later, without knowing-

20 is approaching.

I only can envy at people-

looking at how good they are-

and just simply think that they are my role model-

even though just a stranger-

ya.. that's my life-

I do not know why I write blog twice today-

I just realli feel to write this thought down-

I realli wann to have a hi-tech camera (:

I just feel older and older-

with my childish soul and matured thought at the same time?

time has gone very fast-

like wind in the dessert, blows all the sands.