Invisible Warmth

Invisible Warmth

It's really something that I cant see
Something that I really need
now..

After my mom passed away,
I didnt really want to talk much about it to my other family members
but sometimes when we talk about it
we do not really want to dwell to much into it
we sometimes just put a grinning mask or..
just simply smiley mask on our faces

I do not know why $ are so important
moreover to my dad.
I know it is a necessary to have $ for surviving
but it does not take prior
some more related to my mom's death

Sometimes I am thinking to have a 'bro'
or girlfriend or good friend..
who if I stay beside him/her,
I will feel comforted or feel the invisible warmth..

A brother to hug..
A girl friend to share my room in my heart..
And a good friend to have a pleasant conversation..
It should be somwhere in the corner of this round world..

It is a bit funny if I am interested in a girl right now--
could be called accidentally
but I knew her before-- even we never meet
but somehow we have talked some stuff..
Should I like her? But
if I like her, will she like me? *pif*

Err..
My family..
They are just too busy--
too little time to have chat nice conversation and strolling around with me
working--
schools--
etc..
I just feel unwanted somehow--
not really unwanted,
it is just nothing difference whether I go back or not..
It does not really matter to them..

Somebody in hometown--
help me!!
somebody in Singapore--
help me when I'm back,, soon..